In fact, I've been horribly, slushily, emotionally full of... emotions all week. Today before rehearsal the orchestra manager was talking about reauditions and I almost cried right there, surrounded by people. I don't cry in public. Because whether I get into dental school or not, I won't have time for this orchestra any more, and it's been the most rewarding thing I've ever done in my life, and could very well be the pinnacle of my music hobby. I've only been in it two years and I barely know anyone there, but I'm going to miss it a lot.